I Am Missing You

Knock, knock, knock...
I still hold tight to my blanket. Ignoring the noise.
Then, a hand touch my shoulder.
Shaking me softly,
Calling out my name: Ai Yin, Ai Yin.. Wake up. It's late.
Reluctantly I opened up my eyes. It is 8am. The room is still dark.
The curtain that I have totally block all the morning sunlight.
One thing it is good, cause, during summer, the sun rises as early as 4.30am.
Who woke me up? I dunno. What I know is I am late for class.
Waking up late has become my habit cause I sleep very late.
The tiredness has made me being insensitive to my mobile phone alarm.
I miss that... Not about being late.. I actually miss cuddling under the DUVET!!!
Malaysia where can use the duvet. I'll be certified dead by the doc for being over-steam.

EH!!! Time for class la... Need to walked at least 30mins for first-timer to John Foster. When you train yourself you will walk faster (15mins). Ah... play fast beat songs from your MP3, you will walk faster. If u follow the beat. Eh, but I don't miss climbing up the hill. I miss walking only. If Malaysia, I won't miss it. The weather so different. Summer also only 10-20 Celcius and can go lower during the night. I MISS THE WEATHER.

As the time pass, the night time arrives. However, the moon is just to lazy to take in her shift during the summer. The Moon will only appear around 8-9pm. That is to get a full dark sky.
Squatting down, look at the dead, makes me think whether I should could the fella to eat. Open the top, wonder who to chop today. Ishk.. what are you thinking off? I'm talking about the frozen food and vegetables la... Wonder what to cook for dinner. The most unpopular dish is the sausage. Not hot dog. IS SAUSAGE. Some people didn't know the difference. Never mind, go and Google and see. I miss Chop chop (hahaha.. sounds so Mr. Andrew Upton), Boil Boil, Cook Cook... I miss thinking of inventing new food. I MISS COOKING WITH MY BELOVED FRIENDS!
Elze, Trini, Stephy, Cheryl, Tammy. Eh... Now onli I realise.. all of them got english name, but I don't.

Eh.... The clock is ticking. Not clock, the number on my digital watch is jumping accendingly. By the time chit-chat, time to watch Big Brother Season 10. wah.. that is the silliest program I have ever watch. Put few sarcastic people inside a house and Jail them up. Fuyoh... What to do. For assignment purpose. Privacy Intrusion. Ada kissing, ada naked, ada homo.. Kalau Finas move to UK, habis all that scene kena ban. Pastu, tengok apa then? Nothing interesting d. Tapi naked tu ada limit la. Don't make ur imagination goes wild now, guys! However, in the end, we miss the LAST EPISODE! Know the winner is the big boobs lady, porn star, Sophie... UK porn mag sure to have her inside. Surprisingly most of the Big Bro ladies will turn out to be a porn star in the UK mag.

Never mind, after watching, go back to our own room. Tell you what, I cannot sit still one. Unless when I am emo, I am stress, I watch movie.... If not... Here I come, visiting my little neighbourhood (Flat 83). Knock, knock, knock... Hello.. "tim ah" "kau tim meh ah?" How to do ah? eh tell you that day I saw...... kissing ..... touching.... hugging.... slapping.... (gossip girls). wahahaha... that's what girls do. I MISS MY 83.5 the most. Just situated right opposite the kitchen. That's why everytime eening nap, I will usually be awaken by the smell of food. Hahaha...

Haiya.. late ad.. tomorrow need to work. Go angkat Spritzer Mineral Water for production. K la... Will contimue next time. I wanna sleep d...
Good night...
I will always miss you (all the above, temasuk barang barang, manusia, dan friendship)
I will keep it safely for nyanyuk usage.

$$$Money Not Enough$$$

Age: 0-12 years old
Worry: Mummy & Dady don't love you.
Price for that: Positive Infinity (money not a problem)

Age: 13-17 years old
Worry: How to look more mature & How to tackle opposite sex
Price for that: Buy facial products, nice clothes, ask Daddy Mummy to buy handphone (not to call Daddy Mummy, call friends and BF/GF. So good, parents pay for u to date.) (money still enough)

Age: 18- 24 years old (still studying and rent a room)
Worry: Beauty, Attraction, Cetificate, Assignments, Social, Independence (No more Mummy Daddy to stay with u, ji gei chap sang).
Price for that: Beauty products, public transport, worst still sendiri drive - Petronas, Shell, BP, etc.., Green Box, Luna Bar, clothes, phone credit, dating, "Chap Fan", Coke, groceries, Genting, kai-kai, photocopy, things for assignments, house rental, utilities bill, "beat chicken" and etc. (money very tight)

Age: 25-30 years old (kerja and dating, pre-proposal of "kit fan")
Worry: post grad- find job, salary, and all the above; found job- wanna buy car, buy house, saving; stabil- mau :sign long-term agreement a.k.a kahwin.
Price for that: "mou ngan tai a.k.a no eyes see. too many digits and zerosssss.
(Donald Trump Song: money, money, money, MONEY!)

Age: 31- 60 years old (family and work)
Worry: Anak macam siapa, anak= evil or angel, work stress, family stress, money tight, susu tepung, diapers, ekonomi meleset, anak sakit, anak mau belajar, telinga anak mula tebal, family finance, family matter, banyak matter.
Price to pay: Pay with UBAN. Uncountable. that's why when old ad rambut all pun putih.
(Where to get more money)

Age: 61 until you say bye bye
Worry: Money not enough till the day you say SAYONARA, anak tak mau u, buka akaun for "hari no more worries".
Price to pay: Buku simpanan ada wang lagi tak, KWSP ada duit lagi tak, anak you ada bagi duit, mau mati pun mesti ada duit beli tanah untuk dirikan you punya "bunglow" atau you mau sewa "flat".

$$$ Sampai Mau Mati Pun Money Not Enough $$$

White Lies

Hi everyone! It's been awhile since the last time I touch my blog.
Well, I wasn't in the mood to blog at that time and I was lazy too.
Another thing is, I was caught on the conviction of telling WHITE LIES.
Sometimes, it is real hard to be ones friend. Words are the most powerful weapon.
Words look blunt, don't they?
BUT words can be as shard as knife.
It can really leave a deep scar and it can really hurt one's heart.

People say true friends are the one who really hurt you.
What are true friends to me then? To me honesty is priority.
But, after going through much, being honest with your friend doesn't come to any good.
It makes matter worst sometimes.
And bcause of honesty, trust is taken off.
Losing a trust of a true friend to me is equivalent to 'total lost' of a friend.
So. can we really hurt a true friend then?

Hence, of course, white lies is what is needed to save it.
But, have you thought about it?
What if the true friend that involved caught you telling lies.
All he/she knows is that you are not being honest as you should be.
They don't even give a damn what's the reason behind the creation of white lies.
At this point, explanation comes to nothing.
Because of white lies (which is suppose to be good) cause a havoc in the relation.

What I am saying here, doesn't only apply in friendship. It is in every relationship.
Love, family, brothers and sisters, boss and you, and etc...
Hence, sometimes because of white lies, it can make you look like a bad person.
But is it really that way?
Allah, Jesus, Buddha, every prophets, every religion in the world teach us not to tell lies aren't they?
Lies are bad, they say.
But there is one thing I know. Buddhism thought me that if they lie if for good purpose, then you can tell one.
However, still, although to you is a good purpose, can the other sees it?

So how good can a white lies be?
White Lies might only be good if one understands why you are saying it.
But how many can understand the White Lies?
How many are willing to accept the White Lies?
Can you accept one?
A White Lies.

A Nightmare

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Someone please wake me from this nightmare and tell me that this did not happen in my country and that Teoh Beng Hock is safe at home with his family.

-yasmin ahmad-

This is posted in Yasmin's blog named The Storyteller, Part 2.

Today upon receiving the news, I wish to say the same statement...

Someone please wake me up from this nightmare and tell me that this did not happen in my country's filmmaking industry and Yasmin Ahmad is safe at home with her family.

Rewind: The First Day (29th May 2009)

On 29th May 2009...

By 7.30am (UK time zone), we reached the Manchester Airport. It wasn't a smooth ending of the journey. Cause, one of the handle broke when we went to collect the lugage. No insurance for it unless I bought one. Well, I never buy one. So forget it. When we were reaching the exit point, seniors are out there to welcome us. I'm one of us who pushed the trolley. Not an easy pushed. The pathway surface is not flat. And the trolley is heavy. Phew... Luckily some guys come and help. Reached there ad sweat... Haiz... But never mind.

I hopped into the first shuttle. All of us around 40 cramped into it with our hand lugage. Not air-conditioned. Felt suffocated a little. But when the journey starts, then it's alrite.

Vijay, hmm... one of the senior showed us the accommodation list. Which apartment we are located. How disappointing it is. The excitement suddenly felt like being flushed down. All 6 of us are totally seperated.


Seperated never mind, then we realised something wrong with the list. We are Mass Comm students, why some of us are the only flower surrounded by grass? All others (5) are commerce and one of us being the only Mass Comm. Once we reached the "Living Liberty" Atlantic Point, we went to made a fuss about it. We appeal to be together as we planned. But then we were told that we were not guranteed to stay together when we submit our list.
Alrite, I'm fine with this.
But looked at the list, almost all Advanced Broadcast students (exccept those who already got 6 members they are not seperated. Only those with 5) are seperated and are located individually to different places.
Again, they gave the same reason. But how is this applicable. And you tell me these people might not do it intentionally? Come on, how can this be coincidental? Huh?
Ask our seniors to explain to us. Telling us that they can't changed us or ask us to exchanged with other apartment. But hey, how to change? 1 VS 5. Who wanna change?

So, tears come into scene. Well, I guess it works a little. Ahem.. I din broke into tears though.

What to do... we reached there on saturday. We can do nothing much. Still we gotta obey and all of us went to our designated room.

A white guy help me to carry my almost 30kg lugage up till 4th floor. And guess what... Half way up, The other handle broke. So now, my lugage got no handle. After we settle everything, we went out.


Based on map, we walk around. Ask the local. We went to eat McDonalds for lunch. 99pence for ala carte. The number so small. How can u get a McD for 99cent in Malaysia. Then we went to explore here and there a bit. Buy some food for the next day and how stupid we were. We bought mineral water. Only after that we can drink from the tap. Well, hehehe... Never mind, extra water bottles.

Well, I guess, I must really stop now. For it is 4am in the morning now. And later I need to get up at 7am to get ready for class.

Adious!!!

ANNOUNCEMENT

Yeah, I have been MIA in few days or a month. Anyway to cut story short, just wanna announce that I have created a new blog. Specially to crap about my life in Liverpool.

http://voyinger.blogspot.com

Main Pusing-Pusing

Ikan di dalam kolam tu kelihatan berlengar-lengar di ruang sempit ni.
Makanan mereka ku tabur di atas permukaan air tu.
Kelihatan air itu berkuak...

Kemudian, ku duduk di pinggir tu menikmati tingkah laku mereka.
Alangkah bagusnya aku menjadi seperti mereka.
Main dalam air, makan, renang ke hulu ke hilir, pastu.. tidur.
Apa- apa pun tak perlu dibimbang kan.
Cuma kena bimbang bila tarikh mati mereka dah sampai, kita baham daging mereka.
Tapi apa boleh kita buat.
Maklumlah, dah jadi lumrah hidup kita. Orang putih kata "circle of life".
Ha! Kita pun main pusing-pusing la... I eat you, you eat me...

Eh eh.... Bukannya maksud kita makan sesama manusia.... Lah~~ Kita bukannya orang Mauri.
Kalau macam tu, mungkin tak manusia ini akan pupus?
Hahaha.. Tapi, lupakan lah...

"I eat you, you eat me" secara tersiratnya, itu melambangkan kerakusan manusia ni.
Dah la sama spesis...
Tapi mau buli sesama sendiri.
Ajaran nenek moyang kita, pun kita dah lupa.
Apa nak jadi ni?
Oh manusia.... You dengan aku pun sama.
Kita main pusing-pusing dalam dunia. Kitaran hidup.

Pada zaman dahulu, atuk nenek kita suka saling tolong menolong.
Apabila kawan ada masalah, atuk nenek kita pergi tolong.
Tak kira warna kulit, bangsa.
Tetapi, pada suatu hari, lahirlah wang.
Atuk nenek itu pun mula menyayangi wang itu.
Kasih dan sayang yang mengunung dilimpahkan pada wang.
Hidup atuk nenek kini cuma mereka bertiga.
Wang tu bagaikan intan berlian mereka.

Hinggakan pada suatu hari, wang telah hilangkan diri.
Resah pulak atuk nenek tu.
Mulalah pencarian wang.
Naik gunung, turun bukit, masuk laut, keluar sungai...
Namun hampa juga.
Bayang-bayang pun tidak ada.
Jiran-jiran atuk nenek pun mula lah menghulurkan bantuan.
Akhirnya, tak jumpa jugak.

Atuk nenek tak percaya wang akan hilang begitu sahaja.
Mulalah atuk nenek itu membuat kesimpluan mereka sendiri.
Disangkalkan pula wang itu dicuri orang.
Disangkalkan jiran jiran mereka yang melakukannya.
Mula lah perangai mereka berubah.
Hati menjadi sehitam arang.
Kampung mereka menjadi tidak tenteram.
Semua jiran itu menjadi suspek.
Ditengking, di geledah rumah mereka.
Atuk nenek yang dulu pun telah ghaib.
Atuk nenek sekarang bagaikan hilang panduan hidup sebenar.
Ajaran, agama, teladan, sikap positif telah mereka kuburkan.

Tingkah laku atuk nenek itu telah merebak ke seluruh kampung.
Semua penduduk sudah tidak saling percaya mempercayai.
Semuanya kerana wang.
Hidup mereka menjadi hilang panduan original dahulu kala.
Semua kerana kemunculan wang.
Mereka saling tidak mempercayai satu sama lain.

Wang muncul secara tiba tiba setelah sekian lama menghilangkan diri.
Mengetahui betapa bernilainya wang, pak cik yang jumpa dia tu simpan lah dia.
Mana tau, atuk nenek tu mendapat berita itu terus meluru ke rumahnya.
Tapi, pak cik tu memberikan syaratnya...
Kalau nak wang, nak jumpa wang, jadilah hamba abdi....
Kerana terlalu menyayangi wang, atuk nenek pun bersetuju la.

Begitulah kisahnya... Ah... Hari pun dah malap... Penat pinggul ku duduk lama lama bercerita ni...
Nyamuk banyak pulak tu... Dah! I mau beristirehat dalam rumah. Tunggu la bila ada idea i cerita lagi lah...

The Pole

The hot sun is shinning bright down the earth.
Not only it provides with the sun light.
But it brings the heat too.

Right in the middle of the desert, there, stand strong steel pole.
It has been there for more than a couple of decades.
Standing there all alone through out the years.
Giving comfort to those travellers.
Giving them place to lean.
Letting them to gain back their energy to walk to their destination.

Many people come and go in the pole's life.
It has try it's very best to help those who need it.
And never ask for return.

Till one day, it suddenly feel that the sand in the desert could not longer hold it.
It asked the help of one of a traveller to push it deeper into the sand.
To strengthen it.
However, the traveller replied.
"No, I cant."
Then the pole asked him why.
He said, "Cause you're to hot to be touched. It'll burn my hand."
And he just walked away.
Many other travellers too replied the same thing.

Few months past, and the pole found another traveller. Request the same thing.
And the traveller is very kind hearted enough. He helped the pole to push deeper into the sand.
Hence, the pole thanked him and asked him why he help.
"Well, if you're not strong, how am I suppose to lean on you?"
"True."

Although the pole felt a bit hurt, but it felt fine a minute later.
Cause it thought to itself.
"I'm just a pole. It's ok. At least I still can help one traveller to regain energy. And many others that are coming."
The pole knows that its life is about helping others.
Strong wind, under the hot sun, it still stand tall and be ready to help someone.

When the traveller gained his energy, he walked a distance. Then he stopped.
The pole saw him charged towards him. And gave a big bang to it's body.
The pole found its stand start to get loose. It's body started to lean to the left.
The pole was angry, and curious why he did that.

The traveller said, "Well, thanks for letting me to have a rest. But sorry to say, I only straighten you up cause i want to rest. If other travellers want to have it, then they shall straighten you up themselves.

The pole felt terribly hurt. Though the pole forgive the man for the first time. But this time, he is just too much.

Leaning side ward since then on, he got no other choice. Just to wait some one to help me stand up again.

Other travellers saw it. But just walk past it although it has ask for their favour. They ignore it cause they think it is useless...

Till it come to a time, it has given up.

But one day, the pole at last saw another traveller... And the pole knows it is going to fall to the ground if it's not straighten back.

The pole still has the anger to those who passed by him without helping him when he is in need.
He felt that people has totally use it only.
At the same time, he is falling down anytime.

Should or should not forgive them after so much pain the people had caused him? How many more forgiveness can it offer after one after one had hurt him so much?

What you think the pole should do?

Smart Kids Fair @ Bukit Kiara Equestrian Park

It's been such a long time since the last time i post something here.
Hmm... All becasue I got no mood and lazy... Hahaha...
Recently I just finished edit some pictures that I took when I was working.

Yeah... Working around nearby horses. That was a wonderful experience. Having the chance to watch all the horses have their legs work out with the riders on their back. Horses has been my all time favourite animal.

Recommended by my fren, Wing, to work on this job. This is my first time ever working on registery for an event. Also the first time to work with children. Not bad hey... Just key in all the data. Lucky me din meet any hard-to-handle parents during registration. Work for three days.

The last day is the day I took all these photos.:

Well these a some of the photos that I took and edited. There are many more. Well, if I have the time and in the mood, then you will see more.. hehehe... That's all for now :)

"Life is all about charging foward. Never look back. Make mistake once, never make the same twice."

Life is just like a journey.
Whatever you drive through, it will leaves prints in you.
In life, we meet with many people.
They are people from different backgrounds, races, religion, thinking, emotion and etc.
If you are able to find a person who looks totally like you, but both of you will sure be different (inner) some how or rather.

Life is about trying to maintain yourself to do the right things.
Unfortunately, some of us don't or can't.
Some of us disobey the rules by making it without intentionally.
Some, by the time they realise, apology is rather to late.
Should we stop and wait?
Or should we move ahead?

Both are the ways.
Both brings you to different routes of life then.
Some might lead you to the same conclusion.
It's sometimes just like "two roads diverge one"
Whichever one you choose, is all about taking a risk.

Is all about who you are.
"Life is all about charging forward. Never look back. Make mistake once, never make the same twice."
This is the principle of my life.

Asking forgiveness to start anew is never an easy one.
How many people are willing to?
How far can they erase the past?
How much they can bury the hatchet?

If I'm willing too, will you willing to do and think as I do?

Mistakes are made.
Hurt feeling are felt.
How far can it be mend?
How much can one takes?
If only people think like this;
"Life is all about charging forward. Never look back. Make mistake once, never make the same twice."

Wouldn't it be a better a world for living?

"Life is all about charging forward. Never look back. Make mistake once, never make the same twice."

Can it be done?
It takes two person to do tango.

So...
"Life is all about charging forward. Never look back. Make mistake once, never make the same twice."
It is all about you and me (all of us).

Rewind: November 2008 (Sony VAIO Launch)

What you are about to view in this post is the Rewind of Year 2008 event. Here you will see few of my friends and I that I met in that year having fun at the place we left our mark of memory there.

It is the VAIO Offical Launch@ Sunway Surf Beach, Sunway Lagoon on 29th November 2008. How do I get involved with this event? Well, thanks to Bryan. He is the one who told me about it and I registered to participate in it. Then, I also ask Szetoo and TC to come along. Then, we found out that KJ, Nic, Eddy, Jannah and Khalil came along too. KJ is actually the one who post it on the forum but I didn't go and check it out. Whatever it is, it was a great event. No regrets!

And this photo, I took when me and Szetoo were waiting for the others to arrive. It was kind of hot and sunny that day. That's how I got this photo. We waited to the security guards to allowed us to pass as well as to wait for the others to arrive.

What all of us looked forward too on that day was the treasure hunt activity. The are many other activities but too bad, if we participate treasure hunt, others all clash with the time. So all of us join the hunt only. It is know as the "VAIO HUNT". One group consist of 5. Let me introduce my group members.

Team A: Apabila

Szetoo

Bryan

Wong KJ

Nic Chan

and Me

Sorry, TC...

At first a team can be made up of 6 people. However, when we reached there, they have changed it to 5. We have begged them to put us as 6 but they reject our request. Sorry, TC. It didn't went well as we planned.

Face painting

Before we start the hunt, all of us got our face painted. There are some choices that we can choose. I made two. One flora and the other fire. Hmm... Actually this is the first time I get my face painted. Shy to admit but that's the fact.

The tasks

Here are the tasks we need to complete. There are 10 tasks for 1 hour. The first task we did was to kiss the yellow snake. The we need to do a lot of task which we need to go on many crazy rides. Some turn us upside down. Another one good experience is that we need to do rain dance like a Red Indian. It really work! Cause the next thing we know was that we were splashed with water from somewhere and sprayed with water hose. All these games are fun but very tiring. We have to run bare footed. At the end of the game, my feet got some cuts. But that's okay cause I have a lot of fun.

Right after the Hunt, the first thing that we did was to get ourselves splash with water. Erm.. Except for me cause I'm the one taking pictures.

Next, when almost sunset, the search for VAIO HUNK & BABE competition started. Khalil, Jannah, and KJ participated in the competition. As usual, KJ won the people heart with his skills in yo-yo. So he is the HUNK!

Jannah

The judges.

Here are some other photo's I took randomly of other people that I never know them.

The kids.

Night view of Sunway Surf Beach.



Kids in water.

So, these are basically what we did in the event. There are a lot of pictures and videos but I guess that's enough for today.

OFFICIAL SONY VAIO LAUNCH

29 NOVEMBER 2008